tUESDAY, MAY 2, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
Saturday niger us. After , I s sive. As soon as I came doairs, I o get some er. airs, I said, quot;Fat oget exactly sit at opposite ends of ts wrong?”
Fat;No, I dont ts Anne, o be careful.quot; o t effect, and t upstairs.
Sunday morning o ;Anne, Ive been t ; (O ;s not suc you friends. Is Peter in love h you?”
quot;Of course not,quot; I answered.
quot;ell, you knoand bot you must be to sraint;
dont go upstairs so often, dont encourage ters like ts alakes tive role, and its up to to set ts. Outside, . You see otdoors, take part in sports and all kinds of activities. But ogetoo muc to get a. You see eacime, in fact. Be careful, Anne, and dont take it too seriously!
quot;I dont, Fat Peters a decent boy, a nice boy.”
quot;Yes, but rengter. o do good, but also to do bad. I ays good, because ;
e talked some more and agreed t Fato oo.
Sunday afternoon tic, Peter asked, quot;alked to your Fat, Anne?”
quot;Yes,quot; I replied, quot;Ill tell you all about it. ts ers, it could lead to conflicts.”
quot;eve already agreed not to quarrel, and I plan to keep my promise.”
quot;Me too, Peter. But Fat t friends. Do you till can be?”
quot;Yes, I do. you?”
quot;Me too. I also told Fat I trust you. I do trust you, Peter, just as mucrust. You are, arent you?”
quot;I ; (he was very shy, and blushing.)
quot;I believe in you, Peter,quot; I continued. quot;I believe you er and t youll get ahis world.”
After t alked about oter I said, quot;If out of give me anot.”
all fired up. quot;ts not true, Anne. O let you even t about me!”
Just then somebody called us.
Fatalk to old me Monday. quot;Your Fat our friends turn into love,quot; ;But I told rol.”
Fats me to stop going upstairs so often, but I dont to. Not just because I like being er, but because Ive said I trust rust to prove it to Ill never be able to if I stay doairs out of distrust.
No, Im going!
In time, turday evening at dinner he
apologized in beautiful Dutcely reconciled. Dussel must all day practicing his speech.
Sunday, incident. e gave tle of good after all) presented o make lemonade), Miep a book, Little Martin, and Bep a plant. reated everyone to an egg.
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
EDNESDAY, MAY 3, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
First tion from politics. tely noto report. Im also gradually starting to believe t ter all, t let ty work;
actually, t doing anyt t either.
Mr. Kleiman comes to t a ne of springs for Peters divan, so Peter to ; Not surprisingly, at all in t some flea pos.
old you t our Boc seen t urned o a tasty dis will be wearing a cap made of Bocer is broken.
For t ting lunc eleven-ty on Saturdays; in to make do cereal. Starting tomorroll be like t saves us a meal. Vegetables are still very o come by. ternoon en boiled lettuce. Ordinary lettuce, spinac- tuce, ts all to t rotten potatoes, and you for a king!
I it finally started last Sunday.
Despite t deserted me.
As you can no doubt imagine, en say in despair, quot;s t of the war?
people live togetruction?quot;
tion is understandable, but up to noory anster airplanes and bombs and at time c neion? on t a penny is available for medical science, artists or to starve ting as of the world? Oh, why are people so crazy?
I dont believe ticians and capitalists. O as guilty; otions ive urge in people, to rage, murder and kill. And until all of y, exception, undergoes a metamorpinue to be up, cultivated and gro doroyed, only to start allover again!
Ive often been do never desperate. I look upon our life in eresting adventure, full of danger and romance, and every privation as an amusing addition to my diary. Ive made up my mind to lead a different life from ot to become an ordinary er on. Im experiencing o an interesting life, and ts to laug t dangerous moments.
Im young and ies; Im young and strong and living ture; Im rig and cant spend all day complaining because its impossible to ion and strengturing, I feel liberation dray of nature and t a fascinating and amusing adventure t, why should I despair?
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
FRIDAY, MAY 5, 1944
Dear Kitty,
Fater our talk on Sunday Id stop going upstairs every evening. quot;Knutsc;* [* Necking] going on. I cant stand t alking about it oo! Ill oday. Margot gave me some good advice.
Id like to say:
I t an explanation from me, Fated in me, you expected more restraint from me, you no doubt me to act teen-year-old is supposed to. But ts where youre wrong!
Since nig I and my ing to go upstairs! Ive no of Mot didnt . Ive struggled long and ears to become as independent as I am no I dont care. I kno person, and I dont feel I need to account to you for my actions. Im only telling you t you to t table to, and ts me.
includes you -- closed t rary, all I ever got ions not to be so noisy. I o keep myself from being miserable all time. I to keep from o listen to tting on an act for t year and a . Ive never complained or dropped my mask, nottle is over. Ive , in bot need a motruggle a stronger person.
No its over, no I knotle to go my oo follo seems rigo me. Dont teen-year-old, since all troubles regret my actions, Ill behink I should!
Gentle persuasion keep me from going upstairs. Youll eito forbid it, or trust me tever you do, just leave me alone!
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
SAtURDAY, MAY 6, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
Last nigucked tter Id ten into Fat. According to Margot, and for t of tairs doing t t of sucle would
be. ive! I immediately told Peter not to ask any questions or say anyto me about tter. Is o?
Everyto normal. e can Jan, Mr.
Kugler and Mr. Kleiman tell us about tside; ea costs 350.00 guilders, ter 35.00 guilders, one egg 1.45 guilders. People are paying 14.00 guilders an ounce for Bulgarian tobacco! Everyones trading on t; every errand boy o offer. ts for one measly skein-t ion books, an undertaker delivers cs are daily occurrences. Even t cting in on t. Everyone s to put food in tomaco resort to srying to track doeen, sixteen, seventeen and older wed missing every day.
I to try to finisory about Ellen, t for fun, I can give it to Fatogets.
See you later! (Actually, ts not t p from England t;Aufil e again.quot;)
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
SUNDAY MORNING, MAY 7,1944
Dearest Kitty,
Fatalk yesterday afternoon. I cried my eyes out, and oo. Do you knoty?
quot;Ive received many letters in my lifetime, but none as ful as ts. You, er alk of not o account to us for your actions! You feel youve been to your o injustice!
quot;Per mean it t ts e. No, Anne, we o deserve suc;
O tire life. I used my tears to so make myself seem important so me. Ive certainly Motrue. But to accuse Pim, oo cruel for words.
Its good t somebody me doo size, oo smug. Not everytress Anne does is good! Any- one of the low!
Im most aso tter in tove, and o me noo learn. Its time you made a beginning, in- stead of looking do othe blame!
Ive kno of sorro my age? Ive been putting on an act, but lonely, but never desperate! Not like Fat into treet an end to it all. Ive never gone t far.
I ss done cant be undone, but at least you can keep it from o start all over, and t s be difficult, no I er. iting me, I kno! Im not alone anymore. ing and my diary. Im not all t ugly, or t stupid, I ion, and I to develop a good cer!
Yes, Anne, you kne your letter rue, but you ually proud of it! Ill take Father as my example once again, and I will improve myself.
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
MONDAY, MAY 8, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
old you anyt our family? I dont t me begin.
Fat am Main to very s: Michael Frank owned
a bank and became a millionaire, and Alice Sterns parents and o-do. Mic start out ricies every s, beautiful girls, zing, dinners, a c. After Grandpa died, most of t, and after t ar and inflation t at all. Up until till quite a feremely time in y-five years, t table.
Mot as still fairly ened openmouto stories of private balls, dinners and engagement parties s.
ere far from ric Ive pinned all my er t so set on a bourgeois life as Mot. Id like to spend a year in Paris and London learning tudying art ory. Compare t , o nurse neine. I still ing people. As Ive told you many times before, I to see ting ttle money !
told us about party, o on Saturday. ts are ricer telling us about t able soup balls, c, beef, rolls tes, and you could eat as muced.
Miep drank ten sctes -- could temperance advocate? If Miep drank all to toss do ty tle tipsy, of course. took pograps, since sly noted tacts ch people.
Our moutering so muc t and ely famis not amins!) and rotten pota- toes day after day; omac boiled lettuce, ratuce, spinacrong as Popeye, to no!
If Miep aken us along to ty, t over for ts. If c, including ture. I tell you, ically pulling t out of hered around her as if wed never in all our lives heard of”
delicious food or elegant people! And ters of tinguishe world is a crazy place!
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
tUESDAY, MAY 9, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
Ive finisory about Ellen, t out on nice notepaper, decorated it ogete pretty, but I dont knos enoug. Margot and Motten poems.
Mr. Kugler came upstairs ternoon starting Monday, Mrs.
Broks o spend t imagine! taff be able to come upstairs, tatoes cant be delivered, Bep get go to t be able to move and all sorts of oty of o get rid of a good laxative in do trick. quot;No,quot; Mr. Kleiman ans;please dont, or he can.
A roar of laug;t; Mrs. van D. asked. quot; does t mean?quot; An explanation ;Is it all rigo use t ; s innocence. quot;Just imagine,quot; Bep giggled, quot;t to t even knoalking about!”
Dussel nos on t;can,quot; to borro ty on t. ternoon I boldly took a piece of pink paper and e:
Mr. Dussels toilet timetable Mornings from 7: 15 to 7:30 A.M.
Afternoons after 1 P.M.
Otherwise, only as needed!
I tacked to till inside. I migransgressors to confinement!quot; Because our batside.
Mr. van Daans latest joke:
After a Bible lesson about Adam and Eve, a teen-year-old boy asked ;tell me, Fat born?”
quot;ell,quot; t;tork plucked you out of t you do bled so muco stay in bed for a week.”
Not fully satisfied, t to ;tell me, Mot; ; born and born?”
old ory. Finally, o s, to ;tell me, Grandfat; ; born and er get born?quot; And for time old exactly tory.
t nige in ;After careful inquiry, I must conclude t tercourse in our family for t tions!”
I still o do; its already three oclock.
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
PS. Since I tioned t to note t sy years old and , in vie eight people in hiding are capable of mak- ing.
O, its sucside!
EDNESDAY, MAY 10, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
e ting in ttic yesterday afternoon er of er beer mig pausing to reply, o t-ter -- and shoved
Mouscting beside ter box, back to t place. ts and squeals, and t time ook off doairs. In searco over a crack in tely trickled doo ttic and, as luck to tato barrel. ttic floor its stle yelloo table, betockings and books.
I er, it er armed er, powdered bleach, and Mr.
van Daan trying to calm everyone do to rig its a t cat puddles stink to atoes proved t all too ed in a bucket and brougairs to burn.
Poor Mousco knos impossible to get peat for your box?
Anne thURSDAY, MAY 11, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
A neco make you laugh:
Peters o be cut, and as usual o be t seven ty-five Peter vaniso troke of seven-ty, stripped doo runks and a pair of tennis shoes.
quot;Are you coming?quot; her.
quot;Yes, Ill be up in a minute, but I cant find the scissors!”
Peter ics dra;Dont make sucer,quot; she grumbled.
I didnt catcers reply, but it must , because s, and Peter pulled ;Come on, old girl!quot;
Mrs. van D. stayed put. Peter grabbed s and pulled noter led tic stairs, go of her. Mrs. van D.
came back to to a ch a loud sigh.
quot;Die Enifuquot;ter,quot;. I joked. [* tion of Moto Mozarts opera tion from t;Yes, but me.”
I to , red s er. Peter, still by tairs and groient again, strode into t in amer. Mrs. van D. didnt move, but stayed by ing desk, looking for a ;Youve got to apologize first.”
quot;All rig only because if I dont, .”
Mrs. van D. o lauge of up and to obliged to give us an explanation. (By us I mean Fat; like t ; s;Id ed airs [!]. . t t time s . Did you treat your mot ; S, pacing back and fortever came into ill gone upstairs.
Finally, at long last, s.
Less tes later sormed back doairs, , and flung sairs. Sore doairs like a tornado, probably straigo tti.
S come up again until eigime er tic, given a merciless scolding and s, no-good bum, bad example, Anne t t, I couldnt .
Everyto oday!
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
P.S. tuesday and ednesday evening our beloved Queen addressed try. Saking a vacation so surn to therlands.
S;soon, ;a s liberation,quot; quot;heroism”
and quot;heavy burdens.”
ter Gerbrandy. tle c Motinctively said, quot;Ooo; A clergyman, ake care of tration camps and prisons and everyone working in Germany.
thURSDAY, MAY 11, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
Since Ive left my entire quot;junk boxquot; -- including my fountain pen -- upstairs and Im not alloo disturb time (until ty), youll o make do ter in pencil.
Im terribly busy at t, and strange as it may sound, I dont ime to get tell you briefly to do? ell tomorrourned to tarted reading it yesterday and ten up to page 220 out of 320 pages, so Ill manage it. Next ine at t, I finis volume of a biograperday, and I still o ts Ive collected and tes Ive taken.
Next I o be ten doars are in a terrible disarray and are dying to be straig, but since itll take several days to do t and Professor Anne is, as so o put up ing to be untangled, since ticolored tly in need of attention, or else Ill forget entirely into ture. to tting everyt can you do imagine ful Ill be wy!
O going to take before I come to tory of t do they mean by Sodom and Gomorrah? Oh,
till so muco find out and learn. And in time, Ive left Cte of tine in the lurch.
You can see, cant you, Kitty, t Im full to bursting?
And noime t my greatest , and later on, a famous er. ell o and see if true, but up to now Ive opics.
In any case, after to publis Annex. It remains to be seen he basis.
I also need to finis;Cadys Life.quot; Ive t up t of t. After being cured in torium, Cady goes back inues ing to s 1941, and it doesnt take o discover of ting apart. t and get back toget break up tered, and because ss to udies nursing. After graduation ss a position, at tB sanatorium in Szerland. During vacation so Lake Como, ook of depression.
No tle Cady again, e of er Cady learns t ruggling h.
y-seven, Cady marries a o-do man from try, named Simon. So love not as muc il one night she dreams of him and says farewell.
. . .
Its not sentimental nonsense: its based on tory of Fathers life.
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
SAtURDAY, MAY 13, 1944
My dearest Kitty,
Yesterday eent ts never snut tree is in full bloom. Its covered iful t year.
Fature from Mr.
Kugler, terdam from Dussel, a ifully it migaining ttle of beer, a jar of yogurt and a green tie. It made our jar of molasses seem ratry. My roses smelled o Miep and Beps red carnations. y petits fours arrived from Siemons Bakery, delicious! Fatreated us to spice cake, to beer and to yogurt. Everytious!
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
tUESDAY, MAY 16, 1944
My dearest Kitty, just for a c a little discussion bet night:
Mrs. van D.: quot;ty of time to fortify tlantic all, and tainly do everyto iss amazing rong the Germans are!”
Mr. van D.: quot;Oh, yes, amazing.
Mrs. van D.: quot;It is!”
Mr. van D.: quot;trong to w you mean?”
Mrs. van D.: quot;t. Im not convinced t t.”
Mr. van D.: quot;I even ans.”
Mrs. van D.: quot;You al yourself get carried aime.quot;
Mr. van D.: quot;No, I dont. I alo the bare minimum.”
Mrs. van D.: quot;But you al!
Your predictions rue, you know!”
Mr. van D.: quot;So far they have.”
Mrs. van D.: quot;No t. You said to start last year, to of talian campaign ougo er, and tured Lemberg. O set mucore by your predictions.”
Mr. van D. (leaping to ): quot; you s your trap for a c; someday youll get tired of needling me. I cant stand your bellyace longer. just , one day Ill make you eat your ; (End of Act One.)
Actually, I couldnt eiter ing o keep from laugupid groo learn a fe before tart making so many remarks about tion!
Since Friday night.
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
Our Annex Family Is Interested In (A Systematic Survey of Courses and Readina Matter)
Mr. van Daan. No courses; looks up many things in Knaurs Encyclopedia and Lexicon;
likes to read detective stories, medical books and love stories, exciting or trivial.
Mrs. van Daan. A correspondence course in Engliso read biographer kinds of novels.
Mr. Frank. Is learning Englis of Latin; never reads novels, but likes serious, rations of people and places.
Mrs. Frank. A correspondence course in Englis detective stories.
Mr. Dussel. Is learning Englisciceable results; reads
everyty.
Peter van Daan. Is learning Engliscimes matimes geography.
Margot Frank. Correspondence courses in Englisin, scrigonometry, solid geometry, mecry, algebra, geometry, Engliserature, Frencerature, German literature, Dutcerature, bookkeeping, geograpory, biology, economics; reads everything, preferably on religion and medicine.
Anne Frank. Scry, algebra, ory, geograp ory, mytory, Dutcerature; likes to read biograping, and ory books (sometimes novels and light reading).
FRIDAY, MAY 19, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
I felt rotten yesterday. Vomiting (and t from Anne!), omacter today. Im famis I the brown beans were having for dinner.
Everyter and me. ter need for tenderness till bluss kiss, and tter substitute for Boc mind. knowing somebody loves him.
After my laborious conquest, Ive distanced myself a little from tuation, but you mustnt ters a s, but Ive slammed to my inner self; if s to force to use a harder crowbar!
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
SAtURDAY, MAY 20, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
Last nigtic, I noticed, t I entered t tions er and Margot ire genealogy file, my notebooks, my books, everyt. I nearly cried, and I I started speaking German. I cant remember a according to Margot I babbled somet quot;unlioersesetzliczenquot;* [* Incalculable loss, terrible, a laug joined in, but I felt like crying because all my e notes .
I took a closer look and, luckily, die quot;incalculable lossquot; as bad as Id expected.
Up in die attic I carefully peeled apart die ss of paper diat uck togedier and dien o dry. It te.
quot;Its Rassensc;* Mr. van Daan joked. [An affront to racial purity.] After entrusting my papers to Peters care, I back doairs.
quot;; I asked Margot, whem.
quot;Algebra,quot; Margot said.
But as luck entirely ruined. I one. Inside t cover are t least ty girls s old, yello time Im in a o tear to pieces!
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
MONDAY, MAY 22,1944
Dearest Kitty,
On May 20, Fat and o give five jars of yogurt to Mrs. van Daan:
till begun. I can safely say t all of Amsterdam, all of tire ern coast of Europe, all to Spain, are talking about t, debating, making bets and . . . hoping.
to fever pitc;goodquot; Dutc t everyone terful strategical move. O deeds-great, heroic deeds.
No one can see fart to t t tising for try and ts Englands duty to save obligations do to? Ocaken. te tainly no more to blame for tries, large and small, t are nois about to offer true, tself, but all tries, especially too. England and t of t burying your rich policy.
No country sacrifices its men reason, and certainly not in terests of anotion. tion and freedom England, not territories, will c.
to our great sorroitude toold t anti-Semitism red is understandable, maybe even t doesnt make it rigo tians, ts to to suffer te and puniss t ed out to so many. All of true. But as tter from botians act any differently if tians, remain silent in ts practically impossible, so whe Jews?
Its being said in underground circles t ted to to Poland s be alloo return here.
ted t to asylum in once ler is gone, to Germany.
, you begin to old t ice! the
even over, and already ts sad, very sad t teentime: quot; one Cian does is one Jes on all Jews.”
to be , I cant understand cion of good, , uprig in judgment on us t oppressed, unfortunate and pitiable people in all the world.
I ti-Semitism is just a passing t tcrue colors, t t ts to be just, for t!
And if t terrible t, till left in o go. e too ry, urns its back on us.
I love o me, since I my own. And I ill!
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
thURSDAY, MAY 25, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
Beps engaged! t mucicularly pleased. Bertus may be a nice, steady, atic young man, but Bep doesnt love o me ts enougo advise marrying him.
Beps trying to get aus is pulling any interests or any desire to make somet tll make Bep and Beps ing to put an end to o e t even worse.
So se ter, and now shes engaged.
tors involved in t. First, Beps sick fatus very muc of teases being an old maid. t turned ty-four, and t matters a great deal to Bep.
Mot er if Bep us. I dont knoand married only after tus is in any rate o t. a sorry prospect for Bep, for o appreciate her!
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
ted.
also because its terrible for Mr. van hoeven.
turned upside do decent people are being sent to concentration camps, prisons and lonely cells, s caugeering, anotunate souls. Unless youre a Nazi, you dont knoo o you from one day to t.
Mr. van loss to us too. Bep cant possibly lug sucs of potatoes all to, so our only co eat feell you s certainly not going to make life , eat cereal and bread for luncatoes for dinner and, if possible, vegetables or lettuce once or ts all to be not.
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
FRIDAY, MAY 26, 1944
My dearest Kitty,
At long, long last, I can sit quietly at my table before te you everyt to say.
I feel more miserable ter t feel so utterly broken, inside and out. On t Mr. van ion (ension, tmospment in Peter. On t, tecost reception, tories about cabarets, movies and concerts. t gap, t enormous gap, is al t day (and tened, and tension and despair can be read on our faces.
Miep and Mr. Kugler bear test burden for us, and for all t of us, ension and strain. Mr. Kleiman and Bep also take very good care of us, but to put t of ts only for a fe t. But tings, ts tension is sometimes relieved, if only for a s wo years weve been press I down on us?
t run ter, or if rickle;
flusoilet, so oilet brusting our dirty er into a big eartoday, but on ation Department cant come until tuesday.
Miep sent us a raisin bread ;ecostquot; ten on top. Its almost as if s;happy.”
eve all become more frig;s; from all I sides, and ly. t as easily do t oo! will we do if were ever.
. . no, I mustnt e t do tion let itself be puso today; on trary, all t is looming before me in all its horror.
I o go doairs alone at eigo use tening to ted to be brave, but it
erious muffied sounds from upstairs and treet, I o o keep from getting the shivers.
Miep ing muco I told you about t yet. Miep came up one afternoon all flusraig if too ed anti-Semitism.
Fatunned and quickly talked of t some of Mieps suspicion erest in our troubles, tainly s botheyre such good, noble people!
Ive asked myself again and again ter if o o go t t ill love life, forgotten ture, and we keep hing.
Let somety. Let t least to be tors or the vanquished.
Yours, Anne
M. Frank
EDNESDAY, MAY 31, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
Saturday, Sunday, Monday and tuesday it oo to ain pen, e to you. Friday turday t in ternoon and told us a lot about Jopiej so make sure t been a break-in and stayed for breakfast. Monday (a ecost), Mr. Gies served as tcuesday o open tecost iful and ;quot; is a better o give you an idea of ts, Ill briefly describe tering days.
Saturday: quot;onderful, astic ; ;If only it
quite so ,quot; ernoon, wo be s.
Sunday: quot;ts unbearable, tters melt- ing, t a cool spot any be opened. e poor outcasts are suffocating .quot; (According to Mrs. van D.)
Monday: quot;My feet , I o do t!quot; Grumbling from early in to late at nig was awful.
I cant stand t. Im glad today, but t till shining.
Yours, Anne
M. Frank